Every Cloud Has A Silver Lining

Hai earthlings,

Since I've been really busy when I started went back into the office, I got no time for myself or my stupid overthinking. Since most of my team have to be onsite like, every single day from Ramadhan until now. Everything falls back into its original place and I really tired to handle everything. Balik je kau terus fikir nak rehat dan nak tidur sebab panas apatah lagi bila pakai PPE. Tapi dalam sibuk-sibuk tu, aku cuba jugak berkawan dengan orang-orang baru so that aku takkan ada masa untuk fikir yang tidak-tidak. Seronok. Belajar benda baru dan tahu perkara-perkara yang baru untuk aku. I just spend my time, try to ease my heart with no intention on falling again.

But, here we go again. Tanpa sengaja dan tanpa terniat pun, I met u. When everything started to calm down and I can finally breathe with ease, there's when I found u. I keeps hesitating at first, wondering if it's just a rebound cause I'm too old to play games and hurting u isn't in the list. We talked every night about everything eventho we barely know each other. Funny, isn't it? Kita tak pernah langsung kenal satu sama lain eventho kita selalu duduk dekat-dekat. U in UM while I'm in Mahsa PJ. I'm doing my degree while u're in BSP for few weeks but we never met each other or even if we do, we barely knew each other.

And here I'm, feeling so confident and whole again. Feels so much love and how lucky I'm to meet u. I never expect this to happen but I'm thankful for this. Kalau aku fikir balik, hidup aku hampir sempurna dan aku bahagia. Aku ada family dan kawan-kawan yg sentiasa ada dengan aku, yang dengar luahan aku, yang support aku, yang sayangkan aku bila aku rasa everything went wrong. Dan bila aku jumpa dia and he learnt things about me, he's there and always wait for me. Always trying to be there for me eventho sometimes I could be a mess. He made me feels I'm worth it. He made me realized that I shouldn't settle for less. He told me how nice I'm, how beautiful I'm, he value and respect me as he should. Every single day, without fails he will tell me the same things, over and over again. It isn't only words and all, the actions always shown by him when he met my family during raya and spending night there. Main mercun with them and all before we went back to KL next morning. Why should I wish for more? 

For someone like me, my life are worth it.

Yes, each time, it will be upgraded to next level.

I love you. We both love each other. That's all matter.